and i'm not one who likes to quit things. i don't know if it's that i don't want the inevitable change that comes along with quitting something or what.
but i did it.
i'm taking a break from choir. for at least a year.
and i already miss it.
but i have prayed for almost the past year about this.
wednesday's are hard. i see patients non-stop from 7:30 til 3:00 with no lunch. then i go pick up mary peyton and we usually go get coffee at barnes & noble (that's another story for another post). we're at the church for dinner at 4:45. the mission friends (treasure builders) starts at 5:55. choir starts at 7:00 and we usually end by 8:30 or so (prayer requests, etc., included). by the time we get mary peyton and get to the car, plus talking to my mother-in-law for a minute, it's 8:45 before we leave the church.
then we get home. bath-time, blow-dry hair, wind down (yeah right). blink and it's 9:45. and we're not even in the bed yet.
mary peyton has to have a more consistent bedtime. especially since we're starting "real" school in august. we've got to go ahead and get a better routine in place.
honestly, i also needed the break. to be with my baby. she's only with me for a season - and i feel like i miss so much already being a working mom! adelle, don't read too much into that last sentence - daycare has made her independent and she LOVES her little friends.
i am also going to quit teaching mission friends/treasure builders in may. i've taught this for several years. and loved it. but now that i live with a toddler, i don't really want to be teaching 18 of them on wednesday night. i'm sure i'll come back. it's just a time in my life that i need a break.
and i think it's o.k. i am so looking forward to taking some choice classes on wednesday nights and feeding myself. as a mom/wife/daughter/employee/etc/etc, i feel drained. this may sound like a "pity party", but i promise i don't mean it to be. i just feel like i am constantly giving and giving of myself, but i'm not being fed, you know what i mean?
so that's it. i've quit one and will be quitting another. and it's o.k. all good things must come to an end.
4 comments:
It's ok to take a break. Trey's deacon tenure coming to an end was a celebrated event around here for the very same reason. Now if he and the Pastor Search Committee would finally find a pastor...
Yeah, I knew you were quitting...right about the time I was deciding to go back. HOWEVER, I sat with my family BOTH services on Sunday. No choir. No AVL. And it was quite nice. So I am re-thinking going back to choir. At least for now. And I'm okay with that. I feel good about quitting stuff! And I feel good about you doing the same thing.
it is so great that you recognized that you need a break and you are taking it! we tend to get so caught up in doing that we forget that life is precious and short! i have a problem saying no and i am such a perfectionist..i want to be great at all i do. i drive my own self crazy sometimes. i know you will enjoy your time with mp and rejuvenating yourself!
Um, look at my life right now. No school, downsizing my job, taking time to walk in the park a few times a week....
It's OKAY to let stuff go. Sometimes my problem is, I downsize responsibilities and think "Oh wow! I have so much time on my hands to do what I want!" And then all of a sudden, I've over-committed again. Ugh!
But for me, choir is one night a week. And I'm only singing in the 11:00 service when we have a special. Used to, I would sing both services entirely. See? I'm even downsizing that!
Anyway, I know how you feel. I'm feeding myself right now, and it's ok that you do that too. Love you! Oh, and I'm figuring out a lunch scenario. Are Fridays best for you? Or no?
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